The very first mission is to figure out our true motivation for weight loss. Most of us have many reasons we want to lose weight, but some of them are more motivating than others, in terms of helping us stay on track and overcome temptations. The task in this mission is to take fifteen minutes and write down every single motivator that we can come up with, then out of that list, identify the one that is more motivating. Then we need to come up with ways to remind ourselves of that motivation.
I found this task pretty tough. I had a good, long list of motivators, but figuring out which one was my TRUE motivation was not easy. There were several items that had to do with dancing--I take a tap class, and will be performing in a recital in June. How the costume fits, how I look dancing as an overweight person, and how out of breath I become after performing our more strenuous dance were all factors motivating me toward weight loss. I also thought about how I get a little stressed every time a dress-up occasion arrives, and I have to try and figure out what I have in my closet that looks dressy, fits and flatters my body. Any time I need to go shopping to refresh my wardrobe, I feel a sense of dread about having to shop for the same (or even bigger?!) size, instead of a smaller one. And that brings me to another point--I've been trying to lose weight for three years (well, longer, but we'll just go with three years) but I've actually gained weight in that time. But after considering all of those motivators, what it boiled down to for me was that I want to feel confident, not ashamed, about my body. Whether I'm dancing on a stage, at home with my husband, shopping for new clothes, or dressing up for Easter service at church, I'm ready to be done with a sense of shame over my size, because that is something that is within my ability to change. That is my motivation, and may I keep it in the forefront of my mind as I go about my day.
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